It has been a long while since my last post. A WHOLE LOT has happened. But now isn't the time for summarizing all of that. Just need to cry out something that just keeps coming back to me frequently.
I live for Sundays... Each day of the week that isn't Sunday, I await the next Sunday. Why? It is the day I am completely united again with the body of Christ. His bride, the church, the people.
This shouldn't be so! Why only Sundays? It should be everyday! But that's the problem... I still do not know many people I can comfortably talk about anything and everything. I wanna jump at any opportunity to get to know His people and connect. But at the moment, I do not have any close relationship with another child of God. I want to have one... even just one... But why is that so hard to have?
And why do I even have any desire for that? Why do I need to have another person to encourage me? To care for me? All of those are good but why? Why do I feel that? Because of my Lord Jesus, God is with me. Shouldn't that be enough? Yes, I feel great and I can overcome these feelings because of God's promise and His Word. Meditating on them eases my heart. His voice calms my mind and convicts me. But why do these feelings of loneliness and sadness, etc. frequently returns?
Hear my cry, Oh Lord!
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